I have been holding back on posting here because my emotions have been a little up and down. Up and down? What do I mean? Well, UP and DOWN! We have had no idea how long the next appeal will take or if it will even go in our favor. And we miss our daughter so much. The daughter that is entrapped in corruption, deceit, and wickedness.....and there is nothing we can do about it.
The song playing on this blog is a song that has spoken to my heart in some very real ways. Here are the words:
"If you want me to" by Ginny Owens
The pathway is broken
And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to
Chorus:
Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will walk through the fire
If You want me to
It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone
ya oh oh no
So When the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering that Your love put You through
And I walk through the valley If You want me to
Isn't that a POWERFUL song? It just exudes with SUBMISSION.....ahh, submission.....how very hard that is when you are going through times in your life that are not in your reach to control or even to understand. But, this song exemplifies true submission to God and His plan. We won't know why everything happens. I won't know why Selah can't be with us. I don't know why God is making this so difficult for us and why. BUT, the bottom line is that I trust Him, I love Him, and I want to submit to Him. Its hard. I won't lie. Its hard to submit when He is not making any sense right now. But, that is why submission is not a feeling, but a choice.
