update

We haven't had our final court date officially yet. We are hoping for Monday. The judge keeps delaying and stalling to give us our negative verdict. So, we aren't technically at a "no" stage, but its been made pretty clear.  So its like 99.9999% a No, and the rest a possible yes. But, I would probably FAINT if he gave us a yes, at this point.

In the meantime, we have been fighting....can't be specific here.  We have NO IDEA at this point if she will EVER be our daughter officially. She will always be our daughter in our minds and in our hearts. If we have to release her, then it will be like a death. We already feel that way. This is hard and heartbreaking. I am not looking forward to coming home and seeing her room all made up. I will be packing up her room and putting everything in the closet. It is too hard to walk by it everyday....constant reminder. :(

We have been hanging out with another american couple (gary and josie) that we have enjoyed SO much. They have become our family while here. They remind us of our friends from home. We are so blessed to have their company. They are coming over tonight for dinner (Fri night).We are making chicken (we think its chicken!), yellow rice I brought from home, peas, and bread. They had us over a couple of nights ago and she cooked us a gourmet meal in KAZ! I couldn't believe she found half the stuff at the grocery store here! They are adopting from the city, not the area with all the mess, and they are adopting a little boy. They have had a wonderful, smooth process. We are happy for them.

We don't know yet when we are coming home. But, I will let you all know here on the blog when we do know.

Have I mentioned how much we miss our boys?!?!? We want to take a family vacation somewhere...just the 4 of us.  We don't care about the money anymore....we are tired of not doing anything b/c of "making sure we have enough money for the adoption". We are done putting our life "on hold".